sape bapak?

semalam aku agak tekejut beruk tengok wall aku. cousin aku tulis something yang aku agak confuse+ala2 marah+pelik. die cakap "sebijik cam bapak die. haha"

if orang tau sape aku, siapa family aku. topik bapak bukan topik main2. even close fren ke kawan biasa ke kawan macam xnk kawan ke they wont mention pasal bapak2. sebab sume orang cam tu. kite kenal ngan sum frens, and we hv boundaries. sbb melayu kan pemalu (??) or sopan santun (????). we dont need to know the details of their family. cukup la if kite tau die ade abang, or kakak or adik, ade mak bapak or single father or single mother or anak yatim. thats all we need to know. unless la kite memang kawan rapat+kamcing+bagai aur dengan tebing+isi dengan kuku+boyfren/girlfren/fiancee/hubby/wife+anak/kakak/abang/adik angkat.

so back to the topic motherfucker

orang yg tulis kat wall aku tu cousin.cousin yang tau ape yang jadi dlm family. and post yang die tulis kat wall tu seriously menghumban aku kat bilik yang penuh dengan exclamation mark+question mark. ape yang die pikir or nampak kat dalam profile aku smp die tulis post cam tu? gambar profile? gamba aku ngn daniel. die tak penah pun tengok bapak daniel. aku tak penah pun letak pix bapak daniel kat mn2 album. bapak aku? mmg ar die penah tengok. tapi aku still cam 'biar betul minah ni tulis bende ni kat wall aku'. she supposed to be cousin yang paling baik hati. or aku yang salah faham? haaa ni yang buat aku confuse.

muke aku cam bapak aku? i dont c any part of my face that looks like him since i dont hv any image of him. since i was a baby. bile orang tanye aku pasal ayah, terus je automatic aku teringat kat arwah ayah. n not my real father. bukan aku sengaja. tapi memang automatic dalam otak+hati. i cant control. cam last week kak Fify tanya aku

Fify: when was d last time u saw ur father?
aku :before he die obviously
Fify: i meant ur real father
aku : owh..jasubfiau juhdl;aisnda "£$&* 3125 sajnajfbljnana aksndan (aku explained dlm jwapan yg paling simple n bg ayat yg mmg tak leh buat kak fify tnye pape lg

so when me, myself determined not to hv any feeling to my real father because i dont know him+he dont want to know bout me+all my family members know bout the story = i am so fucking dont expect any statement that i hv spitting image of my real father which i hate, or i hv attitude like him which i hate as well. so are u fucking understand what im saying? yes i dont need that bloody bloke to be my father cos i dont need one. who cares because of him i am here breathing in this world. i never asked for that.

so cousin, i dont care how close ur family are with him. juz dont mention his name and i want nothing to relate with him. i know i hv his blood. n it just a bloody blood. doesnt mean anything at all.

so thats the story today.
so long suckers