Ntah brapa bnyk rokok aku sedut bulan ni. Makin lama makin bnyk. Dl aku igt aku blh control. Dl aku rasa aku mampu nak ubah tabiat ni bila2 tapi skrang rokok je yg teman aku bl aku bosan. Rokok je yang ade bila aku rasa nak duk lepak bersenang2.
Ramai je yg kata prempuan mrokok sbb nak tnjuk hebat. Hello, u really dont hv any idea wat kind of emotion i had for the last 6 mnths.
Things happened.
Things u wish never hapen to your family. Im not talking about a cracked family. Ive been through all dat since i was 2 years old. There is another thing dat u wish it happen to other family bcox u dont think u will cope with it n bcox those thing only happen in tv dramas. N fuck, it still happened to my family. I cried. A lot.
My fren make fun of me. Its not their shit, n still they make fun of me like its sum kind of joke of the year. How could dey? It supposed to be my family secret. I told them bcox i tot dey will understand y i need to be wid my family most of d times. Dey laugh at me. Dey want me to enjoy myself while my family is crying n me myself crying for wat had happened.
I just need more spaces. To absorb everything. I dont know if coming back to mesia is really a good step. I never asked anyone more then wat dey can give. I never had a loan with frens, infact i lean dem my money. I didnt talk shit about their life. I just do my things, n dey still make fun of me.
So wat if i sometimes forgot to pull down my handbrake. So wat if i come to work early. Is it really their buss when i outcast myself by eating at komputer system room alone rather thn go to cafeteria n chit chatting bout nothing but their own selves n talk about other peoples backs. I somtimes just hope dey go die n be sack. I alone can run my life or even a hotel.
I nver had a bestfren n i dont think i will. Y can peeps just shut d fuck up n listen?? Just wat i did when dey spill out their secret
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