Lemah lutut

Tau tak ape yang aku penat. Aku penat nak kesat air mata ni. Chopp. Aku bukan penat nak kesat air mata.

Yang benarnya aku penat nak tahan rasa. Aku tahan. Tahan lagi. Sampai aku hilang punca. Macam semua masalah tiba2 tertumpu pada aku. 

I've been let down. Im not tough. Im broken. Inside and out. to still breathing up to today is actually an achievement when suicide is one of the things that popped up in my head like everyday. 

I do sound silly n stupid. Even if u touch my scar still does not mean u feel my pain.