ross harried

from stirfrytv n ijustine, aku tau pasal ross harried yg sangat cool. ross harried yang gempak gile men drum n pandai gile lukis. talents that i wish i hv. so... start dari situ aku add die nyer facebook. personal facebook die eh n die approve. m not sure whether he do have fan page. pastu aku tengok die nyer blog n bg satu comment kat one of his post. n post tu mmg yang da lame sbb die tak update blog die pn. and after aku bg comment br die cam tesedar die da lame tak update blog die. so die pun update le.

u know what that's mean??! he read my comment! pastu harini, die invite aku join satu travel group ke Kenya. mmg la die just click my name randomly. tapi the fact that he clicked my name already make me floating. ok, not floating, but he did make me feels good.

n here is d prove. wahaha. printscreet siot.

die nyer inital ialah ~!2oss

n aku pun mmg ade initial. mesti ar nak same gak ngn ross kan. aku nyer ialah: 5ha22
hahha cool kan.

*tak langsung*

tak pe asalkan aku hepi. so what happened today. airel call. mls gl nak angkat. smlm angkat, tp aku cakap aku nak tido. hmmm.. gile malas nk contact die.

bedul hapis

aku tau aku normal. tapi kejadian sekeliling aku tak semuanya normal. for example: - aku ade kawan yg aku panggil bedul. aku kena die since aku umo 18 thn. mase tu bedul umo 17 tahun. aku kenal die kat yahoo messenger chat. ya. LAME. i know. so start dari situ kitorang kawan, reply-reply email. kitorang memang sangat sempoi. aku memang suke hati je nak cakap ape kat die. die pun mencarut sesuke ati je kat aku. kitorang tak penah jumpe. bukan tak nak jumpe, tapi tak perlu jumpe pun aku rase. aku sgt selesa je cam ni, n aku tau die pun same. dari dulu sampai sekarang die same je. aku pun same je. tapi aku da dapat rase yang die macam da semakin membesar. what i meant is semakin mature. there is one side of him that i didnt know exist because we never meet face to face. everything about us is texting dari phone, pastu email. myspace, facebook. da 6 tahon aku kawan dengan die. gile bapak gempak. seriously ni kawan paling lama n paling tak pernah lost contact aku pernah ade.

aku penah tolong die break up ngan sorang ex die dlu. sbb bedul ni sengal, nak clash tapi tak tau nak cakap. couple pandai lak. hampeh tol. aku jarang cite masalah aku kat die n die pun tak de ar nak share sume problem die ngan aku. tapi mase aku kat kolej, mmg msg hari2 la. phone aku tu tak penah senyap. text from bf, pastu si bedul. mmg blh lumbe2 la. hahaha

so bedul, tengs ar tegur aku mase kat ym chat dl. hahaha. aku ingat lagi ko punye email yg sume cam bapak sopannye. sekarang cam pelesit je. hahaha. pe pun best of luck weh in everything you do. yg penting ko mmg psycho n aku mmg cool dr dl. aku tau ko senang kwn ngn aku sbb ko kate aku ni tak sentap cam kawan perempuan ko yg lain. aku tau sbb ko bgtau. heheh. ok so... babai

di dam dam

demi kekasihhh..

ah hek mung kekasih. demi selera orang puase yang semakin menggile terhadap diri, so aku pun dengan sepantas jari menaip mencari recipe untuk masak mee. so dapatlah recipe mee goreng basah. kol 8 tepat aku masak. pastu 10 minit lepas tu mee goreng basah aku pun siap. so aku pun ngaplah. memang bosan gile la mee aku tu. tak menarik pun. memang ar ade udang, sotong, cili, mee, daun bawang, tp kalo ati memang tak de ati nak mkn. tak leh jalan gak kan. tapi abes gak satu mangkuk mee aku blasah. pas kemas dapo aku pun terus nek bilik. n sekarang aku ngah menaip.

soooo aku ingat nk g birmingham raye ni. tp cam ntah ler... aku nak duk umah je. so instead of going there i'd asked zareen to come over. if die bawak sorang kawan ok le. if die bawak segerombolan mmg tak dapek ar kan. gile ape aku nk jd host tuk orang seramai maybe 7 orang. tak mampu macik, nak oi. lagipun ni umah kak fifi. n aku cakap kat kak fifi yang zaren sorang je datang.

memang, sgt macam budak2 kan aku ni. terase macam "kite bukan tak nak bagi awk pinjam crayon kite, tapi mak kite nanti marah kite". ya, sort of. nanti kang tetibe sky tv tu punye pin code terblock, mati aku. tak kan nk kol kak fifi yang kat amsterdam tu just nak suh die kol sky side n reset pin tu. well, dat is not d only case. i dont know their behaviour. even zaren pun aku da tak jmp about 3 years.so i dont know what to expect though. so maybe i just keep dis place for my own. no interruption. beside, i have few illegal things to do. such as.... lucky strike if u know what i mean. hehe.

so long suckers!

sakday n sunday

saturday, sharp 4pm aku ngan kak fifi chow g bazar ramadhan kat Cheetham Hill. omaigod, sgt ramai melaiz! tp sangat hampa sbb sume nye pun da kawen, so how d hell im going to get British Passport if i cant find any melaiz to marry with. i dont want to be just Malaysian in Malaysia. i want to be Malaysian in UK or US or Japan or Germany. ye sangat tinggi kan impian. so aku beli nasi kandar, beli air longan. well mmg slalunye kat mesia aku tak beli pn bnyk2 bnd. unless if g ngn syg. mmg tetibe je nk beli sume. hahaha

pastu mase nak beli air longan ni, aku cam teragak2 lagi nak beli. so aku mcm tengok la air tu n tgk tuan yg jual tu. aku tengok org yg jual tu sbb die tengook aku. well if orang tu tengok ko and die bediri kat behind table kedai tu, mst la ko igt die tuan pny kedai kan. so aku ngn sopan santun, lemah lembut aku cakap la aku nak air tu satu. pastu ngn poyo nye die tak becakap spatah haram die just tunjuk kat tuan nye kedai. so aku pun cakap la 'owh..ok' in other word 'awkwarddddddddd'. ntah pape btl. eee..

so arini plak iaitu sunday. aku pg umah kak yamin. die ajak bukak pose. n aku beli coklat daim kat ikea td. idk y but d taste is not tingling to my taste bud. kalo dlu, pantang nmpk daim, laju je aku terkam. maybe sbb aku da bnyk mkn coklat yg sedap. so aku rs daim da xsedap? beli bnyk lak tu. aremm. so ok la tata.

august yang ke 20

so...... im hungry. memang tak baik cakap yang kite lapa mase bulan puase. but lets face it, memang lapa pun. ok. lets forget bout this lapa stuff sebab memang kewajiban sebagai seorang umat islam. Aku berpuase kerana Allah s.w.t

so... ive done planning my goals n stuff to do once i get my butt kiss Metro bus kat KL.

masak nasi ayam hari ni. should i or should i not add ayat Pet dalam fren list? erghh... i dont know. should i? its not like me and her father have 'father - daughter in law conversation' before this. we just stay silence. pffftt.... i seriously dont know what to do. hmmm, maybe that is the best. do nothing. yup. do nothing. PERRRFECTTO!

puasa hari ke 10... nothing much to expect. same old same old. start blogging again. i just feel like teeling someone about me n myself. so people is not a good choice. so blog is the best though. erm, raye... hmmm maybe g birmingham. i dont know. raye ngn zaren. but i dont tell kak fifi bout this plan just yet. maybe later. maybe not.if tetibe plan tak jadi. hohoho.

ok la. papai

another 2 days

another 2 days will make a month since my last update for any blogs i have. which is not cool. im dying to type. well actually im not dying to type i just want to surf the net!!!

so arrangement has been made. aku sampai m'sia on February. which will make pet scream. bcox i told him that ill be arriving on january n on february we will be on our very first vacation. maybe will make shah scream as well.

so what's the latest news wanni?

well.. been talking on d phne with pet n i told him about guys that i'd been close to since our short separation. n he go ballistic. that is not new. tapi, die cakap he want to take this relationship to another level. which is engagement level. n i was thingking 'you want us to be engage because you dont want any guys come closer to me or you really want me to be yours fully'. i know he did show his commitment with me plus shah never ever forget to remind me how pet 'worshipping' me.

what make today is a lovely morning is, mama send me a message. ok ok replied my message. it is a very long message. n i love every words of it. uuuu.. windu...

so since it is puase n like mama said, i need to change. n i will start from today. insya'Allah.

so hapi ramadhan n i know it might be to early to wish but selamat hari raya to all..

actually there is so many thing i want to brag about. but i just want to leave it a rest.huhuhu tara.

New phone

Hv u ever listened to story bout how silly sumone can be in a desperate time. Well i thought it wont happen to me. Of cos i never ever see myself doing sumthing silly jux bcox of depression, but who knows. I can 'rectify' my self from bad situation, but when it has to deal with sumone else, my silly brain cells will ring a bell.

So here is d story. Me kk fifi n her kids supposed to watch shrek 4 together. Well dat is a plan. But of cos,life has its own way of direction. So me end up hang out at bookstore. Where else can i be. I am broke with 50pounds in hand. My phn battery is almost empty,i dont hv any spare phn.how d hell m going to text kak fifi telling where i am. So with a gentle touch, i click 'create message'. And of cos, life has its own plan. The battery is out. I tried to switch it on after a few minutes n still doesnt work. I cant remember kak fifi's phn number. And dis is not k.l where there are few phone booths dat i can charge my handphone.

So i found dis carphone warehouse.hopefully there is a gadget where i can charge my battery by using dry AA battery. I'd saw dis gadget once. Unforunately all dey have is for iphone.so i start looking for a phone.a cheap phone can do.n i found dis cheap phone for only 4.59pound. Fucking crazy!!its a rili basic phn.so cheap.so i bought it.haha. But it didnt cost me 4.59,bcx i need to buy dat stupid simcard n topup.it is part of d deal.so all in all it cost me 24.59pound and mind peace. So i dont hv to worry about emptied phn battery n dis time life has its mercy on me.

So after d movie, we had lunch n kak fifi asked me whether i bought anything. N with confidence i said no.

Buttttt, dis life full of suprises yawww...

I dont knw y sofia need to scrouching my drawerrrr!!! So kak fifi found out bout d nw phn. I played it cool.i said i bought it long time ago. N kak fifi thought it is for my malaysia number. N i cudnt agree more. Hahaha.

Nabil

Have dis thing ever happened to u?u write an email to a fren, sms to dear one, or even an entry to publish at ur blogspot,but suddenly bcox of one stupid touch to the wrong button, everything deleted. U cant undo, u cant back to previous page. Blank, devastated, dissappointed, frustrated. U cant write the exact same thing like the last time. Even if u tried it seems so unreal. Because u had put ur spontaneous,ur feelings, ur views n stuff to the one that got deleted.

And when you about to done, aaaa.. U knw what happened.

N it sucks.

U c,expect the unexpected they said. But seriously, i dont hv much time to think about what could go wrong after this.so i dont want to expect anything.i jux want to dream. Dream without any hope. Yeah. It is more safe. I can dream about getting a big hug by mr.nabil which i'd admire without telling anyone up til now.

Blablabla, good nite

Bukan dia,tetapi....

Yeah,lame gile tak post sumthing kat cni.everything is so hectic nowadays. Aku dlm kesukaran dlm membahabi masa. Mane nak check email dari peminat tersayang,mn nk cek facebook dan membalas komen dari stalker2, dan surat layang d dalam inbox.

Dewasa ini,facebook juge berada di hujung jari.bukan ja d ujung jari,kadang terbawa2 dlm mmpi. Apekah alamatnye jika bermmpi tntang facebook?dpt kawen dato' kah, dapat masuk akademi fantasia kah?dpt bersalam dgn menteri sukan kah?

Yaaaa....ape aku mlalut ni labu. Yang penting, bajet tuk holiday da siap.

Shahriman monteiro juga spertinya stuju untuk mengikut lawatan sambil berjoli d negeri pahang dan terengganu.dengn sedaya upaya,aku yang jg saya akan menggoda/mengugut pet untuk mnjadi solo driver spnjang dr kl ke klantan.

Aku yg jg saya dan juge pet mmg mahu mengundang shahriman monteiro dlm sesi lawatan smbil berjoli.sbb die masih single,kacak dn berbudi pekerti...malah tidak keterlaluan sekiranya sy berkata yang shahriman masih teruna.

Sebagai kesimpulannya,walau holiday lmbt lg,tp sy dpt merasai debarannya. Hepi sokmo deh.

popular

popular mechanics for lovers and you me and everyone we know, most played songs in my itunes playlist.

for d first time in 5 months, aku call mama. impressive eh. por sumone like me. i just need to stay close to her. kalo tak, tuhan je tau betapa banyaknye setan datang menghasut untuk otak aku bepikir yang bukan2. e.g nape tak reply email? nape selalu tak reply email? nape da tak reply email? nape tak send email? nape da lame tak send email. ya, dis sort of things. and bile memalam mule la tepikir apa yang nk cakap kat mama if tejadinye satu hari nanti mama tetibe tak nak amik tau pasal anak die ni. so aku memang da prepare la sume ayat nak cakap kat mama. mmg wtf la setan ni. bayangkan selame 5 bulan aku bermain ngn otak2 yg di hasut setan.

tapi tadi kol mama 20 mins, terus natural balik otak aku ni. terus cam mendapat kasih sayang yang melimpah ruah, seharum kasturi, seindah mimpi. wah! wtfungus!

then lelame pastu kol pet, saje nak usha die ngn si asze kerinduan die tu. manelah tau tetibe dating aku lak kacau daun ke. choiii. puih puih.

oh man, me and him are building a 100 floors of dream and im not sure whether it is safe tu have this perfect dream. or one day in future we just look at these dream demolished by reality. pathetic eyh. pathetic kot, balik mesia nak timbang tara relationship pun belom, tpi da poyo2. aku suke part mase aku cakap 'i love rabbit/hot dog/kambing/almari/etc' nnt pet reply 'i love u 2'. muahahahha. dushumm! ngok.hepi tetibe

2009 january

sekarang 2010 july. lajukan mase bejalan. tak penat ke ko jalan laju2 ni wahai mase. meh la berehat sebentar bersama kitkat.

*tingtong ke

tak. ngah menahan ni.

*yew. hamsap betul.

aku bukak myspace, bace blog dulu2, aku baru teringat balik ape yang aku nak sejak dari dulu. aku nak kereta. kereta yang berguna yang mampu bejalan berjuta-juta kilometer. bukan kereta yang setakat berjalan, malah meluncur, menunggang, mengdrive dan seantero dengannye. tapi maybe ade hikmah aku tak de kereta mase dulu, sebab maybe tuhan tau aku akan sentiase je on the road. aku ni da cam gipsi da. tak kisah tak de duit, yang penting dapat merantau. tapi gipsi yang ade kereta la, xnak la gipsi yang tumpang2. tak independent ar ken.

and aku pun baru teringat punca aku mengikat belanje kat cni. sebab kereta gak. tapi semenjak aku mendapat impak maksima dari 'mereka2' tu, aku da lupe sume. xpe, aku akan ingat hari2 pasal kereta. aku akan lupe pasal sume gadget branded yang menjadi idaman. aku nak kereta. aku besyukur ngn gadget2 yang aku da ade. cewahhh sangat munasabah kat diri sendiri kan.

fuck my life

everything went wrong today.

*hoi not everything. everything went well when no one in this house.

you got that rite. it started at 9 o'clock in the evening. yes! my life is so fuckin smoothly before 9pm. arghhhh i am trying to not bitching bout my mrs.SponsorEverything since she sponsoring me since the day i got here. infact she did sponsored me before i get my self stuck here.

*hey, dont fucking brag bout everthing. u r not stuck. u choose to be here

i was trying to be dramatic idiot!

i really am greatful for everything dat mrs.SE had done for me. and i did return the favor but mrs.SE, dont acted like a bug or like a maggots covering dead body cos i really not comfortable n i need to be able to breathhhhhhhh.... peacefullyyyyyyyy.

i know u r perfect, but if you want the 'end up product' to be perfect juz like u want it to be...my advice is pls dont get yourself into d 'making' because im pretty sure u dont like it.

*enuf of that. wat is more that fucking messy bout today

and i dont know how, suddenly bujang (laptop) become slower than ever. dat one i know the reason. because i didnt shut it down since yesterday. but all of sudden sound from fucking nowhere tetibe ade. cam haram. trailer from harry potter n ntah pape ntah lagi. its a virus but aku rs die bukan stand alone virus.meaning virus tu depending on other software to get activate. n dis one depending on internet explorer. sbb bile suare trailer tu muncul je, mesti internet explorer tetibe je nak muncul kat screen n then hilang.so my solution since aku tak de anti virus, aku buang je internet explorer tu. sekarang da tak de suare pape lg. hah...lega.

arghhhh sabar sabar....sabar...... sabar je lah ngn mrs.SE

another few months to go. i'd passed 8 months. another 5 months to go.

so fuckers... im in a bloody hell mood. rase nak balik kl sekarang jugak. tapi demi rm15k. aku sabar je. sabar selagi mampu. xmampu pn sabarkan jugak. june da lepas. byebye june! i hate u! but i love u! c u next year!! so sekarang da july. jadi,tinggal july,august, september, october,november. december last stay. january aku chow. middle january aku blah. yahooo. so now im living in with july, tinggal 5 bulan and plus2 day in jan which i dont care to count.

so, i oredi have dis fucking vivaz, which i hate so much. now im just so into apple. aku da tengok2 macbook. and still in doubt to own it in full range price or beli je second hand which i think, not bad since macbook kan ok. i guess. aku try carik yang paling murah. aku try tengok kat apple store kat indon, apple store kat mesia, apple store kat us n apple store kat uk dan tak d lupe apple store kat singapore. definitely apple store kat uk adelah paling mahal. perghh siot. us paling murah. tapi sape yang nak g us? masalahhh.

tapi cam nak iphone gak. huwargghh nak iphone ke nk macbook? drrrrr.... cam ne ni. tensi2

oh hai

fuck u! :D

its been a while since my last post. i dont know what happened to Pencarut Terulung. it supposed to be a blog which only me can understand all the words, the sentences, the colors combination etc. and now it end up like shit.

sume post kat pencarut terulung macam sengaja nak menggedik. aku nak tulis2 words2 yang macam dulu. tapi tetibe sekarang rasa takut. plus, i dont have fucking spare time since new year. except at night, but i am so tired to juggles with more word and to jot it down, and bla bla bla. maybe i should delete ol the stuff that i think has no meaning to me.

so. this monster who have blog akan kembali beroperasi cam dlu. mencarut pasal hari2. mengumpat. tapi bukan pasal shah. sbb nanti die mengamuk n tak nak kawan selama berbulan2 lamanya. so latest news, broke up with pet. but still in touch. fucking fed up with airel.what if he read this blog? ohh him? i dont mind at all bcause he will do nothing. perhaps. hehe.

so ive been thingking with pet, where should we go for holiday. terengganu is definitely going to be my awesome and compulsory state to visit. pet? ikut je. we never go anywhere else but KL n paling jauh pun putrajaya. so since he is now working and i have some saving, maybe - it just my thought that we could spent quality time together and consider bout this wavy relationship. both of us had issues. me with my uncontrollably emotions and he with his 'sy syg semua perempuan selagi gf sy xjeles' attitude. ok, maybe all the reasons above is just bullshit, and d only legit reason is i just need to spent time with him like d old days. wow. dat is chessy. hehe.

c u laterrr

B^)