Wednesday, November 9, 2011
im gone
i miss my family. like a lot. but they didnt know bout it. balik rumah, i tot boleh borak2 dengan angah. guessed im wrong. she with her salty and sulky face. she wont answer my question but i have to answer all of her questions. and if do the same, i am the bad guy. im a troubled, they say. yes i am when all of u keep on sucking what best in me and left me when i have nothing else but this lonely feeling. i really am tired with this. im about to giving up. i want to starts over again. find a small room somewhere and do my things like i used to do last time.
Friday, November 4, 2011
more sins
ive been bitchy this few days. i think this whole week ive been bitchy to everyone. it got nothing to do with my flu, cough or whatever.
i know the job that i have now its not up to the 'standard' answers when someone asked you 'what are you doing for living?'. even this occupation of mine is still a job at the end of the day. all i need to do is to bare with the shift thingy. people make fun of me when they know i dont have Sunday off day. what the heck man?! seriously, if sunday means tido sampai pukul 2 petang, xpelah i dont mind pon. i can sleep until 2 on weekdays. and hell no u cant do that on d weekdays unless u r on medical leave.
i have night shifts. so once in a while i have to work around 11pm to 7am job. balik rumah tido for a few hours, then i got the whole day to day my things and back to sleep until 10pm then go to work once again. as for me, i need to sleep before i can do anything else. i think everyone pun cam tu. but somehow someone doesnt give a shit about that. all they want me to do is cover their ass without thinking anything.
here is the whole story; (im just so cross, i just had to blog about this thing)
i need to work late night shift next weekend. so one of my family members who decided not to talk to me this whole week suddenly think i am just the perfect lame person to cover up her shit at this Amcorp Mall flea market. so she called my handphone and called my work place. wuu... she do sounds desperate. so after few hours i decide to call back. and i did. then i wished i didnt.
she asked me what time ill be working on 13/11. i said 'night shift, why?'.
'i need to go to ipoh la. can u help me taking care of my stuff on that day?'
Amcorp mall flea market around 9 or 10 am and finish at 6pm. the table need to be set up and blablabla
'i work night shift on that day'
'ya i know so u can choose whether to help me in the morning or in the afternoon'
what??!!!!
'i work night shift that weekend'
'ya, so its up to you to help me in the morning or in the afternoon'
what???!!!!
'i cant decide right now'
'when can u gimme answer?'
what???!!!!
i know we are family and stuff. but u were the one who started this cold war last week and now u push everything to me. real nice and real steel of heart you have. idk if my hormone make me dis emotional, or i really am sick about this. this is not the first time fyi. i know my job is nothing to you, but this job keep me sane all these while. how can i respect that stupid-flea-market-which-dont-even-make-profit-that-you-only-do-for-weekends of yours if you cant even try to understand this thing i do for living.
i know the job that i have now its not up to the 'standard' answers when someone asked you 'what are you doing for living?'. even this occupation of mine is still a job at the end of the day. all i need to do is to bare with the shift thingy. people make fun of me when they know i dont have Sunday off day. what the heck man?! seriously, if sunday means tido sampai pukul 2 petang, xpelah i dont mind pon. i can sleep until 2 on weekdays. and hell no u cant do that on d weekdays unless u r on medical leave.
i have night shifts. so once in a while i have to work around 11pm to 7am job. balik rumah tido for a few hours, then i got the whole day to day my things and back to sleep until 10pm then go to work once again. as for me, i need to sleep before i can do anything else. i think everyone pun cam tu. but somehow someone doesnt give a shit about that. all they want me to do is cover their ass without thinking anything.
here is the whole story; (im just so cross, i just had to blog about this thing)
i need to work late night shift next weekend. so one of my family members who decided not to talk to me this whole week suddenly think i am just the perfect lame person to cover up her shit at this Amcorp Mall flea market. so she called my handphone and called my work place. wuu... she do sounds desperate. so after few hours i decide to call back. and i did. then i wished i didnt.
she asked me what time ill be working on 13/11. i said 'night shift, why?'.
'i need to go to ipoh la. can u help me taking care of my stuff on that day?'
Amcorp mall flea market around 9 or 10 am and finish at 6pm. the table need to be set up and blablabla
'i work night shift on that day'
'ya i know so u can choose whether to help me in the morning or in the afternoon'
what??!!!!
'i work night shift that weekend'
'ya, so its up to you to help me in the morning or in the afternoon'
what???!!!!
'i cant decide right now'
'when can u gimme answer?'
what???!!!!
i know we are family and stuff. but u were the one who started this cold war last week and now u push everything to me. real nice and real steel of heart you have. idk if my hormone make me dis emotional, or i really am sick about this. this is not the first time fyi. i know my job is nothing to you, but this job keep me sane all these while. how can i respect that stupid-flea-market-which-dont-even-make-profit-that-you-only-do-for-weekends of yours if you cant even try to understand this thing i do for living.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Reply to post Lelaki Idaman
ok cik hawa or lisa. ini ialah reply post untuk lelaki idaman. maybe i interpreted it differently from what you were trying to say in your blog. kate Lisa
first of all, awak tau tak kawan kepada kawan awak tu dah umur 39 taon. maybe sebab tu ke dia cakap ayat sedemikian bentuk? hahaha
second thing, let say lah kan; boifren kawan kepada kawan awak ni (namakan dia Minah, si laki plak Jebat) ajak Minah ni kawen. Jebat dah luahkan hasrat dia la kiranya kan? untuk together2 di masa depan kan. tapi, kalau Jebat tu seorang yang asyik la dok tukar kerja, susah betul nak ada saving sendiri walhal bukan kene tanggung sesape, suka berangan and cakap besar tapi habuk pun tarak, suruh si gulfren sabar and sabar sampai tuah datang bergolek ke kaki tanpa usaha apa2. awak rasa Minah nak tunggu jugak? or dia akan straight terima lelaki yang dia kurang kenal tapi ada masa depan.
we all deserves better. Jebat deserve girl yang lagi better dari Minah, tapi dia nak jugak Minah sebab dia punya suka la kan. and Minah tu pun deserves someone lagi better dari Jebat dia, tapi dia try jugak untuk stick dgn Jebat, sebab dia rasa laki tu mampu berubah and punya masa depan. tapi sampai bila air yang surut tu akan terus surut (cewah..!!). kalau kita boleh nampak masa depan, semuanya senang cerita. tapi masalahnya kita yang kawal hidup kita sendiri. kita kena punya planning and tools to make everything works and of course dengan izin Yang Maha Besar.
jadi itulah debat saya untuk kali ini. Entry lisa ----> Link!!!!
p/s Lisa, sorry ya dong- orang demam macam kita ni memang aktif tak kene tempat. kahkah.laplap yuyu.
"suma hawa maukan adam yg ade mase depan .tipu la kalo ckp, eh sume tu x penting .tipu gile .
seperti seorang gadis yg aku kenal melalui kawan aku .bercinta, mengadu , berkongsi semuanya ngan kawan aku .tapi tup tap bila gaduh, teros terkeluar ayat
"saye akan terima pinangan raye nnt, even saye x kenal die .. die ade mase depan.. nk tggu awak, ntah kan bila "
ha see ! just sbb sang adam ni x pernah menyuarakan suara hati, teros di anggap x punya mase depan .jelik kan .kau hanye ade untuk bersuka suka, memberikan harapan palsu semate .x baik tahu, mainkan perasaan orang ."
second thing, let say lah kan; boifren kawan kepada kawan awak ni (namakan dia Minah, si laki plak Jebat) ajak Minah ni kawen. Jebat dah luahkan hasrat dia la kiranya kan? untuk together2 di masa depan kan. tapi, kalau Jebat tu seorang yang asyik la dok tukar kerja, susah betul nak ada saving sendiri walhal bukan kene tanggung sesape, suka berangan and cakap besar tapi habuk pun tarak, suruh si gulfren sabar and sabar sampai tuah datang bergolek ke kaki tanpa usaha apa2. awak rasa Minah nak tunggu jugak? or dia akan straight terima lelaki yang dia kurang kenal tapi ada masa depan.
we all deserves better. Jebat deserve girl yang lagi better dari Minah, tapi dia nak jugak Minah sebab dia punya suka la kan. and Minah tu pun deserves someone lagi better dari Jebat dia, tapi dia try jugak untuk stick dgn Jebat, sebab dia rasa laki tu mampu berubah and punya masa depan. tapi sampai bila air yang surut tu akan terus surut (cewah..!!). kalau kita boleh nampak masa depan, semuanya senang cerita. tapi masalahnya kita yang kawal hidup kita sendiri. kita kena punya planning and tools to make everything works and of course dengan izin Yang Maha Besar.
jadi itulah debat saya untuk kali ini. Entry lisa ----> Link!!!!
p/s Lisa, sorry ya dong- orang demam macam kita ni memang aktif tak kene tempat. kahkah.laplap yuyu.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
pemalu sial
dari darjah satu, dari umur lima tahun aku memang jenis yang tak banyak cakap dengan orang kalau orang tu diam. aku tak reti nak banyak mulut kalau aku tak biasa dengan orang tu. semua perasaan rendah diri, tak confident, malu, tak de idea nak cakap apa, and banyak la lagi yang buat aku terus terusan diam dan diam.
memang bukan semua orang paham. aku paham kalau diorang tak paham. aku pun tak boleh pahamkan dorang. tak kan tetibe aku nak suruh dorang paham aku. abis aku xnak paham dorang. aku bukan tak paham dorang. aku cuba nak paham, tapi aku tak tunjuk la dengan words, dengan borak2 kosong. aku buat with action, aku senyum ke, aku bagi diorang privacy sendiri ke. tu bukan kira paham dorang ke? if dorang mintak tolong, sedaya upaya aku tolong. tapi jangalah sebab aku diam cam ni, korang terus rasa aku ni tak layak kawan dengan korang. so bila korang unfriend aku, korang rasa aku punye confident boleh boost ke? makin jatuh ade la. aku tak de pun cakap kurang ajar. still korang unfriend aku. aku tak paham la.
memang! memang makin lama ade je orang unfriend aku dalam facebook. aku tak de internet la biol. that is one of the reasonssss kenapa aku tak leh nak chitchat kat dalam fb ke, komen2 gamba dengan jayanya selama satu jam straight. fine la, tak nak kawan sudah. korang memang da best pon kan. who need taeby kan. xpolah.. hangpa suma da perfect dengan family sendiri. tak pa tak pa. tengok la nanti, kalau aku susah aku takmo mintak sedekah kat korang. wah!boleh ke cam tu. kalau korang sampai mesia nanti, aku tak nak tego korang. aku pandang je kuku aku. aku takmo cakap ngan u kak smelly! i hate u. i dont hate u. tapi how could u. i know there is no hi or hey. tapi you yang tak reply my message dulu. fine fine fine. seriously, dont friend with me for ever lagi dah. blah la lu. dengan hubby u yang hensem tu pun blah skali!!!(cox i know i wont hv d chance. wekk!!)
i still hate u even i say i dont hate u!!!
memang bukan semua orang paham. aku paham kalau diorang tak paham. aku pun tak boleh pahamkan dorang. tak kan tetibe aku nak suruh dorang paham aku. abis aku xnak paham dorang. aku bukan tak paham dorang. aku cuba nak paham, tapi aku tak tunjuk la dengan words, dengan borak2 kosong. aku buat with action, aku senyum ke, aku bagi diorang privacy sendiri ke. tu bukan kira paham dorang ke? if dorang mintak tolong, sedaya upaya aku tolong. tapi jangalah sebab aku diam cam ni, korang terus rasa aku ni tak layak kawan dengan korang. so bila korang unfriend aku, korang rasa aku punye confident boleh boost ke? makin jatuh ade la. aku tak de pun cakap kurang ajar. still korang unfriend aku. aku tak paham la.
memang! memang makin lama ade je orang unfriend aku dalam facebook. aku tak de internet la biol. that is one of the reasonssss kenapa aku tak leh nak chitchat kat dalam fb ke, komen2 gamba dengan jayanya selama satu jam straight. fine la, tak nak kawan sudah. korang memang da best pon kan. who need taeby kan. xpolah.. hangpa suma da perfect dengan family sendiri. tak pa tak pa. tengok la nanti, kalau aku susah aku takmo mintak sedekah kat korang. wah!boleh ke cam tu. kalau korang sampai mesia nanti, aku tak nak tego korang. aku pandang je kuku aku. aku takmo cakap ngan u kak smelly! i hate u. i dont hate u. tapi how could u. i know there is no hi or hey. tapi you yang tak reply my message dulu. fine fine fine. seriously, dont friend with me for ever lagi dah. blah la lu. dengan hubby u yang hensem tu pun blah skali!!!(cox i know i wont hv d chance. wekk!!)
i still hate u even i say i dont hate u!!!
Thursday, October 20, 2011
now i know
di hitung hari-hari yang lepas, aku rasa macam pelik. pelik sebab kenapa macam tak ada masalah datang kat aku. sebab aku tau, aku manusia yang clumsy, yang sengal, yang absolutely kene rotan baru nak pi semayang. aku sorong kepelikan yang aku rasa itu ke dalam longkang. tak tau la plak yang longkang tu rupanya saluran besar untuk masalah-masalah yang lebih besar. dan sekarang memang aku ada masalah besar.
aku pernah terpikir, mungkin ke masalah ni akan jadi kat family aku. betul ke masalah ni wujud dalam family yang realiti. bukan dalam drama je? bukan dalam rancangan Nona je? and sekarang, memang confirm masalah tu memang wujud. aku mula cari definition masalah ni dalam google. aku cuba untuk positif, tapi memang hampeh. aku ingat aku lucky. rupanya tidak.
mungkin.. mungkin tuhan rindukan aku. sebab tu dia bagi masalah ni kat aku. so aku akan menadah tangan, meluahkan perasaan, minta untuk permudahkan jalan selepas ni, tunjukkan aku jalan supaya aku dijauhkan dengan masalah ni. and selalu aku berdoa supaya cepat-cepat aku dapat lari dari dalam dunia ni :'(
i hope everyone is in a good condition.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Update 5 secs.
God....! i miss blogging so much.
update: mata sakit. masuk habuk. habuk tak nak keluar. beli eye mo. abang 7-Eleven yang kacak bagi duit balance RM4.10. masuk Dunkin Donuts, beli cappuccino. Budak Dunkin Donuts tu cakap 'Over je budak ni nak cappuccino". Aku senyum sambil cakap "ko sakit ke hape Ngah". Carik kerusi. Bagi Eye Mo dekat Angah, dia tolong titik kan dalam mata. "So sweet" kata semua pengunjung lain. "Shutup" jerit aku dalam hati.
How is that for the update??!! :p
last entry emo betul. there are so many things yang boleh buat aku dalam state membenci diri sendiri.
1) bila peoples turn me down
2) bila hujan
3) bila angah keluar rumah tak cakap bagi aku risau sorang-sorang
4) bila mama marah
5) bila tak dapat spent masa ngan angah
6) bila mama suruh jaga kedai kat amp corp mall
7) bila mama suruh pergi course Amway
8) bila angah and mama bagi macam2 emotion kat aku
9) bila horny
hahahaha. bila horny boleh emo ke?
opis update. aritu reza bagi awek dia punya ipod. suruh aku update and jailbreak. aku pun dengan confident amik la ipod tu. haram... da masuk 3 minggu aku tak leh gak update benda alah tu. erghhh!! tolong tolong. cho meng nga....!! cho meng nga...!! aku boleh bagi alasan kenapa tak dapat jailbreak. tapi masalahnya aku dah terbagitau reza aku da restore benda alah ipod tu. and just tinggal nak update and jailbreak je. arghh.. cho meng nga. just to think about this thing pun boleh buat aku gelabah semacam. :( da la reza tu comel. when a comel guys approach you and ask u a favor, mestilah aku akan say yes. aku memang boleh buat update restore tu. tapi masalahnya aku tak tau kenapa ngan si reza nyer ipod ni tak bleh plak. boleh plak kan macam tu. aku geram betul la. aku suruh si Luqman tolong. sebab aku ingat aku yang tak reti, rupanya. memang tak boleh tolong pun. memang ada error pun. adoi la. terpaksalah aku menebalkan muka aku je memberitahu pasal kelemahan aku sebagai penggodam minor yang tak tau buat apa2.
sekian update jam 5.
p/s i can smell bau kepam kat cni. erghh.. sape punya la ni. adoi la!!
update: mata sakit. masuk habuk. habuk tak nak keluar. beli eye mo. abang 7-Eleven yang kacak bagi duit balance RM4.10. masuk Dunkin Donuts, beli cappuccino. Budak Dunkin Donuts tu cakap 'Over je budak ni nak cappuccino". Aku senyum sambil cakap "ko sakit ke hape Ngah". Carik kerusi. Bagi Eye Mo dekat Angah, dia tolong titik kan dalam mata. "So sweet" kata semua pengunjung lain. "Shutup" jerit aku dalam hati.
How is that for the update??!! :p
last entry emo betul. there are so many things yang boleh buat aku dalam state membenci diri sendiri.
1) bila peoples turn me down
2) bila hujan
3) bila angah keluar rumah tak cakap bagi aku risau sorang-sorang
4) bila mama marah
5) bila tak dapat spent masa ngan angah
6) bila mama suruh jaga kedai kat amp corp mall
7) bila mama suruh pergi course Amway
8) bila angah and mama bagi macam2 emotion kat aku
hahahaha. bila horny boleh emo ke?
opis update. aritu reza bagi awek dia punya ipod. suruh aku update and jailbreak. aku pun dengan confident amik la ipod tu. haram... da masuk 3 minggu aku tak leh gak update benda alah tu. erghhh!! tolong tolong. cho meng nga....!! cho meng nga...!! aku boleh bagi alasan kenapa tak dapat jailbreak. tapi masalahnya aku dah terbagitau reza aku da restore benda alah ipod tu. and just tinggal nak update and jailbreak je. arghh.. cho meng nga. just to think about this thing pun boleh buat aku gelabah semacam. :( da la reza tu comel. when a comel guys approach you and ask u a favor, mestilah aku akan say yes. aku memang boleh buat update restore tu. tapi masalahnya aku tak tau kenapa ngan si reza nyer ipod ni tak bleh plak. boleh plak kan macam tu. aku geram betul la. aku suruh si Luqman tolong. sebab aku ingat aku yang tak reti, rupanya. memang tak boleh tolong pun. memang ada error pun. adoi la. terpaksalah aku menebalkan muka aku je memberitahu pasal kelemahan aku sebagai penggodam minor yang tak tau buat apa2.
sekian update jam 5.
p/s i can smell bau kepam kat cni. erghh.. sape punya la ni. adoi la!!
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Go die
Ntah brapa bnyk rokok aku sedut bulan ni. Makin lama makin bnyk. Dl aku igt aku blh control. Dl aku rasa aku mampu nak ubah tabiat ni bila2 tapi skrang rokok je yg teman aku bl aku bosan. Rokok je yang ade bila aku rasa nak duk lepak bersenang2.
Ramai je yg kata prempuan mrokok sbb nak tnjuk hebat. Hello, u really dont hv any idea wat kind of emotion i had for the last 6 mnths.
Things happened.
Things u wish never hapen to your family. Im not talking about a cracked family. Ive been through all dat since i was 2 years old. There is another thing dat u wish it happen to other family bcox u dont think u will cope with it n bcox those thing only happen in tv dramas. N fuck, it still happened to my family. I cried. A lot.
My fren make fun of me. Its not their shit, n still they make fun of me like its sum kind of joke of the year. How could dey? It supposed to be my family secret. I told them bcox i tot dey will understand y i need to be wid my family most of d times. Dey laugh at me. Dey want me to enjoy myself while my family is crying n me myself crying for wat had happened.
I just need more spaces. To absorb everything. I dont know if coming back to mesia is really a good step. I never asked anyone more then wat dey can give. I never had a loan with frens, infact i lean dem my money. I didnt talk shit about their life. I just do my things, n dey still make fun of me.
So wat if i sometimes forgot to pull down my handbrake. So wat if i come to work early. Is it really their buss when i outcast myself by eating at komputer system room alone rather thn go to cafeteria n chit chatting bout nothing but their own selves n talk about other peoples backs. I somtimes just hope dey go die n be sack. I alone can run my life or even a hotel.
I nver had a bestfren n i dont think i will. Y can peeps just shut d fuck up n listen?? Just wat i did when dey spill out their secret
Ramai je yg kata prempuan mrokok sbb nak tnjuk hebat. Hello, u really dont hv any idea wat kind of emotion i had for the last 6 mnths.
Things happened.
Things u wish never hapen to your family. Im not talking about a cracked family. Ive been through all dat since i was 2 years old. There is another thing dat u wish it happen to other family bcox u dont think u will cope with it n bcox those thing only happen in tv dramas. N fuck, it still happened to my family. I cried. A lot.
My fren make fun of me. Its not their shit, n still they make fun of me like its sum kind of joke of the year. How could dey? It supposed to be my family secret. I told them bcox i tot dey will understand y i need to be wid my family most of d times. Dey laugh at me. Dey want me to enjoy myself while my family is crying n me myself crying for wat had happened.
I just need more spaces. To absorb everything. I dont know if coming back to mesia is really a good step. I never asked anyone more then wat dey can give. I never had a loan with frens, infact i lean dem my money. I didnt talk shit about their life. I just do my things, n dey still make fun of me.
So wat if i sometimes forgot to pull down my handbrake. So wat if i come to work early. Is it really their buss when i outcast myself by eating at komputer system room alone rather thn go to cafeteria n chit chatting bout nothing but their own selves n talk about other peoples backs. I somtimes just hope dey go die n be sack. I alone can run my life or even a hotel.
I nver had a bestfren n i dont think i will. Y can peeps just shut d fuck up n listen?? Just wat i did when dey spill out their secret
Saturday, September 17, 2011
while
while you were not here with me in this reality....
aku jadi semakin marah. semakin cepat panas. semua orang pun punya masalah depan mata aku. lagi-lagi guest yang datang nak check in. baru tanya sikit aku dah melenting. hah! peduli apa aku. aku keje hotel 4star je. bukan 5 star. if 5 star memang la aku macam pijak semut tak mati, keje macam robot.
walaweh... its been awhile dol. since aku menulis kat sini.
birthday aku pun dah lepas. n fuck! i am a year older. i have been birthdaying for more than 20 years... fuck!!! i am vintage! ada susut nilai tak rasanya? i do have assets.. ASSETS. wakakaka. im not sure if anyone would understand what am i trying to say. hihi. let just drop it there.
raya. i felt like im still in UK. dulu mama kata masa aku kat UK, once aku da dapat license, aku boleh ikut dia beraya kat Kedah. lesen dah dapat, tapi she went to somewhere else. not even close to Kedah. so aku dengan Angah beraya berdua. raya kedua Angah mula kerja part time. Aku pun mula kerja macam biasa. Ntah pape kan. Raya supposed to be a celebration, a reunion between family and all Muslims. but not this time around. felt like in zimbabwe wa cakap sama lu joe. 10th Raya aku decide untuk amik cuti and pergi kelantan. jumpa pak long and his family. spent like 3 days there and back to KL and back to work. duit gaji habis tetibe je. haha. but im glad. i glad i did not burden pak long and his family. well, i think i didnt burden him. let just stay with that mind set okay.
Smoking tak sangat. tido tak sangat. movie slalu sangat. jerawat tetibe nak menyemak kan. dodol betul.
penat la. bye
taebysonotcoollike rasa nak mandi sambil makan ketupat lagi
aku jadi semakin marah. semakin cepat panas. semua orang pun punya masalah depan mata aku. lagi-lagi guest yang datang nak check in. baru tanya sikit aku dah melenting. hah! peduli apa aku. aku keje hotel 4star je. bukan 5 star. if 5 star memang la aku macam pijak semut tak mati, keje macam robot.
walaweh... its been awhile dol. since aku menulis kat sini.
birthday aku pun dah lepas. n fuck! i am a year older. i have been birthdaying for more than 20 years... fuck!!! i am vintage! ada susut nilai tak rasanya? i do have assets.. ASSETS. wakakaka. im not sure if anyone would understand what am i trying to say. hihi. let just drop it there.
raya. i felt like im still in UK. dulu mama kata masa aku kat UK, once aku da dapat license, aku boleh ikut dia beraya kat Kedah. lesen dah dapat, tapi she went to somewhere else. not even close to Kedah. so aku dengan Angah beraya berdua. raya kedua Angah mula kerja part time. Aku pun mula kerja macam biasa. Ntah pape kan. Raya supposed to be a celebration, a reunion between family and all Muslims. but not this time around. felt like in zimbabwe wa cakap sama lu joe. 10th Raya aku decide untuk amik cuti and pergi kelantan. jumpa pak long and his family. spent like 3 days there and back to KL and back to work. duit gaji habis tetibe je. haha. but im glad. i glad i did not burden pak long and his family. well, i think i didnt burden him. let just stay with that mind set okay.
Smoking tak sangat. tido tak sangat. movie slalu sangat. jerawat tetibe nak menyemak kan. dodol betul.
penat la. bye
taebysonotcoollike rasa nak mandi sambil makan ketupat lagi
Sunday, July 24, 2011
macam something big
this post mempunyai banyak perasaan menyampah. so dont waste your 3 to 5 minutes on this post cos seriously your 5 minutes isnt refundable.
Zul tu kan menyampah betulah! poyo macam siput babi. one week earlier shah dah belikan tiket harry potter untuk tengok hari ni. shah ajak zul. zul tak nak. then i called zul, asked him if i can have my dvd player, cds and the cd case. aku bukan buruk siku ok. tapi before i fly to UK aku da amanahkan untuk dia pegang reta benda aku tu. cos aku tau if aku suruh mama yang pegangkan, i dont think benda tu akan di letak dalam kotak yang belum tentu kukuh and di hempap sesuka hati dalam store room. which i hate very much. all of my stuff is gone ok. all of it. well, most of it. diorang entah transfer kat mana. and one of kotaksss is at the bottom of all kotak-kotak. how the hell im going to amik benda alah tu sume!! adoi la kan. back to zul...
i told him that im going to watch harry potter with shah and ain. but i dont think i have watch harry potter part 1 tu. so dia kata nanti dia nak kasi on sunday. ok fine. movie pukul 6, so ok la tu. then shah call aku. shah kata zul ada something nak bagi kat aku on Sunday. tapi shah kata zul is so secretive. tak nak bagitau apa something tu. so i called zul. ape yg ko nak kasi. dia kata nak kasi cd tu. aku cakap la 'itu pun nak kene jadi rahsia ke? por favor'
aku bukan nak kata aku bagus, tapi aku tak leh blah dengan zul yang macam budak2 tu. literally childish ok. dia suka cakap besar. masa kat uk dulu dia kata konon2, every month since aku tak de dia ada belikan aku adiah. so once aku sampai KL konon aku akan ada mountain of hadiah. which of cos is a bullshit. i dont want that bloody presents you idiot. i just want you to be honest la dol.
pastu pasal license. so me and shah completed our driving license dulu2. supposedly,shah and zul dah dapat driving license before aku balik uk. we r some kind competitive. bukan la competitive, tapi macam kitorang da together2 since kolej, so everything pun nak sama-sama naik. sume pun akan support masing2. sangat gedik. i know. tapi zul macam asyik bagi alasan je. dia kata die pegi driving class. he told us about the instructor, the route blablabla very convincing one. so we trust him. tapi bila dia cerita pasal test tu, aku rasa macam pelik plak. sebab macam lain macam. cerita dia lain betul. lepas tu aku and shah buat plan.
zul balik kampung. so aku dengan shah pikir, betul ke mamat ni da dapat licence. shah banyak kali suruh dia try bawak kreta shah, tapi dia insist. so kitorang pikir, lepas balik kampung, apa kata tanya dia mana dia punya licence. mesti la kene ada kat purse kan. ada orang nak simpan licence kat kampung? convenience ke simpan driving license kat kampung yang kat pahang tu, tapi awak tu kat KL. confirm la tak kan. tapi, what do u know... that is very relevant to zul. aku tanya dia mana dia nyer driving licence? aku nak tengok. dia tergagap2 cakap benda alah tu kat kampung. konon2 bapak dia nak tukar hak milik kereta tu kat nama dia. so kene ada lesen dia. WHATTT???? seriously. aku rasa macam nak menjerit kat muka dia. if sume orang bagi lesen kat mak bapak sebab nak tukar nama, memang la tak jam langsung KL ni....!! habis tukar milik baru boleh bawak kereta balik.
dari dulu sampai sekarang asek nak nipu je. aduyaiii.,.. memang aku panas hati ngan mamat ni. da la sesuka ati datang ofis aku, amik2 gamba aku. pastu cerita kat orang macam ko tu tak bersalah langsung. pastu say sorry dalam message berjuta-juta kali sampai aku rasa menyampak. n fucking yes i have to create a fake boyfriend because of that bastard. aku penat la.
i have dated liars, i have dated womaniser.
so for those who has found the perfect guy, please appreciate them.
i can see my future. single with a child. sigh~~ b
Zul tu kan menyampah betulah! poyo macam siput babi. one week earlier shah dah belikan tiket harry potter untuk tengok hari ni. shah ajak zul. zul tak nak. then i called zul, asked him if i can have my dvd player, cds and the cd case. aku bukan buruk siku ok. tapi before i fly to UK aku da amanahkan untuk dia pegang reta benda aku tu. cos aku tau if aku suruh mama yang pegangkan, i dont think benda tu akan di letak dalam kotak yang belum tentu kukuh and di hempap sesuka hati dalam store room. which i hate very much. all of my stuff is gone ok. all of it. well, most of it. diorang entah transfer kat mana. and one of kotaksss is at the bottom of all kotak-kotak. how the hell im going to amik benda alah tu sume!! adoi la kan. back to zul...
i told him that im going to watch harry potter with shah and ain. but i dont think i have watch harry potter part 1 tu. so dia kata nanti dia nak kasi on sunday. ok fine. movie pukul 6, so ok la tu. then shah call aku. shah kata zul ada something nak bagi kat aku on Sunday. tapi shah kata zul is so secretive. tak nak bagitau apa something tu. so i called zul. ape yg ko nak kasi. dia kata nak kasi cd tu. aku cakap la 'itu pun nak kene jadi rahsia ke? por favor'
aku bukan nak kata aku bagus, tapi aku tak leh blah dengan zul yang macam budak2 tu. literally childish ok. dia suka cakap besar. masa kat uk dulu dia kata konon2, every month since aku tak de dia ada belikan aku adiah. so once aku sampai KL konon aku akan ada mountain of hadiah. which of cos is a bullshit. i dont want that bloody presents you idiot. i just want you to be honest la dol.
pastu pasal license. so me and shah completed our driving license dulu2. supposedly,shah and zul dah dapat driving license before aku balik uk. we r some kind competitive. bukan la competitive, tapi macam kitorang da together2 since kolej, so everything pun nak sama-sama naik. sume pun akan support masing2. sangat gedik. i know. tapi zul macam asyik bagi alasan je. dia kata die pegi driving class. he told us about the instructor, the route blablabla very convincing one. so we trust him. tapi bila dia cerita pasal test tu, aku rasa macam pelik plak. sebab macam lain macam. cerita dia lain betul. lepas tu aku and shah buat plan.
zul balik kampung. so aku dengan shah pikir, betul ke mamat ni da dapat licence. shah banyak kali suruh dia try bawak kreta shah, tapi dia insist. so kitorang pikir, lepas balik kampung, apa kata tanya dia mana dia punya licence. mesti la kene ada kat purse kan. ada orang nak simpan licence kat kampung? convenience ke simpan driving license kat kampung yang kat pahang tu, tapi awak tu kat KL. confirm la tak kan. tapi, what do u know... that is very relevant to zul. aku tanya dia mana dia nyer driving licence? aku nak tengok. dia tergagap2 cakap benda alah tu kat kampung. konon2 bapak dia nak tukar hak milik kereta tu kat nama dia. so kene ada lesen dia. WHATTT???? seriously. aku rasa macam nak menjerit kat muka dia. if sume orang bagi lesen kat mak bapak sebab nak tukar nama, memang la tak jam langsung KL ni....!! habis tukar milik baru boleh bawak kereta balik.
dari dulu sampai sekarang asek nak nipu je. aduyaiii.,.. memang aku panas hati ngan mamat ni. da la sesuka ati datang ofis aku, amik2 gamba aku. pastu cerita kat orang macam ko tu tak bersalah langsung. pastu say sorry dalam message berjuta-juta kali sampai aku rasa menyampak. n fucking yes i have to create a fake boyfriend because of that bastard. aku penat la.
i have dated liars, i have dated womaniser.
so for those who has found the perfect guy, please appreciate them.
i can see my future. single with a child. sigh~~ b
Friday, May 20, 2011
dodol
jadinya,
hari-hari aku pun entah hilang ke mana, pergi ke mana. tiba-tiba aku bangun hari sudah baru. kemudian bila di dalam tandas perhati dinding aku mula terfikir sampai bila mahu jadi macam ni. buat azam baru. sampai rumah tengok movie. tido. tiba-tiba hari baru lagi. pergi kerja. masuk toilet, termenung apa perlu buat esok hari. balik rumah tengok movie. tidor dan bangun seperti hari semalam. bila masa kata-kata dalam otak mahu jadi realiti. bila masa keinginan dan kemahuan hati menjadi nafsu untuk bangkitkan diri menggalas peranan menjaga diri sendiri. haiyooo..
everytime also like this one. aiya.
setan like me very much. always created new excuses so that i become more lazy. fuck u la setan. i hate u like babi. i dont have any issue with babi. but since everyone also like to say babi when they get angry so i just assume that we need to put/say babi in a fucked-up situation.
contrary to indonesia, when they angry to a person they dont use word babi. they use 'dodol'. how cute. well, in indonesia 'dodol' is similar to 'begok or bodoh'. im so into WWF n i love animals, so i dont want to use babi anymore. i want to use dodol. so ....
ko ni dodol la setan!!
hari-hari aku pun entah hilang ke mana, pergi ke mana. tiba-tiba aku bangun hari sudah baru. kemudian bila di dalam tandas perhati dinding aku mula terfikir sampai bila mahu jadi macam ni. buat azam baru. sampai rumah tengok movie. tido. tiba-tiba hari baru lagi. pergi kerja. masuk toilet, termenung apa perlu buat esok hari. balik rumah tengok movie. tidor dan bangun seperti hari semalam. bila masa kata-kata dalam otak mahu jadi realiti. bila masa keinginan dan kemahuan hati menjadi nafsu untuk bangkitkan diri menggalas peranan menjaga diri sendiri. haiyooo..
everytime also like this one. aiya.
setan like me very much. always created new excuses so that i become more lazy. fuck u la setan. i hate u like babi. i dont have any issue with babi. but since everyone also like to say babi when they get angry so i just assume that we need to put/say babi in a fucked-up situation.
contrary to indonesia, when they angry to a person they dont use word babi. they use 'dodol'. how cute. well, in indonesia 'dodol' is similar to 'begok or bodoh'. im so into WWF n i love animals, so i dont want to use babi anymore. i want to use dodol. so ....
ko ni dodol la setan!!
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
not real
last month and this month posts semuanya tak real. its all fake. semuanya tak kena dengan jiwa. i dont do much travelling nowadays. which is disturbing. i do some lepak but money always a burden. pathetic. no more mcd everyday. no more mamak. no more starbuck. no more jco. no more sandwich.
harini lepak dengan shah. supposedly teman dia pergi hasil sumber dalam negeri ke hapa benda ntah untuk buat cukai dia, tapi tak jadi. heading to p.j to get free one month true fitness pass. pastu melepak kat ikea beli karipap. ade orang approach nak jual perfume. 'sori kacau abang dengan wife abang'. dalam hati. 'fuck you. muka aku macam orang kawen??!'. shah pegang-pegang rambut depan orang jual perfume. 'damn' dalam hati. tengok shah's lips. how it taste like? 'fuck you' dalam hati marah diri sendiri.
shah tunjuk rumah idaman. harganya RM1400 sebulan. cakap kat shah. nanti kita kongsi sewa rumah tu. shah kata ok. wuu sangat western. hek mu!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Bila orang tanya umur, fOr sure aku cakap umur tahun lepas. Aku xbrapa ngam lah dgn umur yg baru ni, even dah 4 bulan bersama. Cewah. Sebenarnya bukan sengaja. Masalahnya memang betul lupa...! Tapi bila aku cakap umur aku 20 pon, orang percaya je. Baguih na.
Aku ada kawan baru. Namanya icha. Dari indonesia. Baik bangat ini budak. Aku punxtau la kenapa. Tapi boleh je masuk satu kepala dengan dia ni. Smua orang pon senang bangat sama icha nih. Sangat lah caring. Handphone aku rosak, dia yang temani aku sampai ke pavillion sana.
Hari ni hujan lebat kan. Icha pulang ke apartment jam 3petang. Aku jam 8 malam. Dia cal hotel. Tanya aku gimana mau pulang. Diq mahu antar payung sbb dia tau aku tak ada pyung. So diq datang hotel, kasi payung sama aku. Dia nak suruh scandal dia a.k.a boss aku hantar balik umah. No way!!!! Aku cakap sama icha, if dia nak tumpangkan aku, aku tak mau pergi keje esok. Hahaha. So aku pun balik la jalan kaki sampai ke klcc. Even icha sebenarny memang heading to klcc. Oh naya ja. Aku ni dah lah xbanyak mulut. Mampus diam membisu dalam kereta. Choi choi choiii.
First shortage dalam account aku setelah seminggu duduk kat front desk. Rm 9.40. Aku dapat tip Rm4 dah kene bagi balik. Choiii. Guest tu kene bayar Rm4.70 kat aku. Yang aku pulak p bagi Rm4.70 kat guest. Alangkah bingainya saya
Aku ada kawan baru. Namanya icha. Dari indonesia. Baik bangat ini budak. Aku punxtau la kenapa. Tapi boleh je masuk satu kepala dengan dia ni. Smua orang pon senang bangat sama icha nih. Sangat lah caring. Handphone aku rosak, dia yang temani aku sampai ke pavillion sana.
Hari ni hujan lebat kan. Icha pulang ke apartment jam 3petang. Aku jam 8 malam. Dia cal hotel. Tanya aku gimana mau pulang. Diq mahu antar payung sbb dia tau aku tak ada pyung. So diq datang hotel, kasi payung sama aku. Dia nak suruh scandal dia a.k.a boss aku hantar balik umah. No way!!!! Aku cakap sama icha, if dia nak tumpangkan aku, aku tak mau pergi keje esok. Hahaha. So aku pun balik la jalan kaki sampai ke klcc. Even icha sebenarny memang heading to klcc. Oh naya ja. Aku ni dah lah xbanyak mulut. Mampus diam membisu dalam kereta. Choi choi choiii.
First shortage dalam account aku setelah seminggu duduk kat front desk. Rm 9.40. Aku dapat tip Rm4 dah kene bagi balik. Choiii. Guest tu kene bayar Rm4.70 kat aku. Yang aku pulak p bagi Rm4.70 kat guest. Alangkah bingainya saya
Monday, April 4, 2011
kerjak
life is not getting harder, its getting weirder. life is not complicated but peoples have their own say which make everything that surround us doesnt make sense sometimes.
after a month duduk kat malaysia dengan lenggang kangkung, aku mula kerja. hotel. operator. and after three days aku kerja, aku dapat pergi training untuk jadi front office assistant. which is cool and scary at the same time. before this handle customer over the phone, now face to face. dulu ada button mute untuk gelabah and cuak kebebeh. tapi esok, semua guest dapat baca depan mata. i hope everything will go well tomorrow. tomorrow is the first day of training. kita training+practise terus. abislah. cuak kebebeh sorang-sorang.
setiap hari pun mesti ada something yang remindkan aku pasal Hasbullah. adui lah. pergi briefing selalu ada Hasbullah. sekarang ada Arip yang aku tak kenal langsung. bila pergi cafeteria jumpa Hasbullah tengah makan, sekarang entah siapa-siapa.
Makan sorang-sorang, aku memang tak ada hal. jalan sorang-sorang pun aku tak ada hal asal ada arah tuju and of course kena ada duit untuk beli air bila haus.
bilik sewa sudah ada. lesen on the way. gaji tak ada. saving makin sikit. in one month aku dah spend over RMbanyaksangat. tapi aku tak berapa menyesal sebab aku betul-betul guna duit tu and tak pernah lagi call MrsNSP untuk pinjam duit. kadang-kadang i just wanna live. i dont want to just survive. tapi nanti bila sudah dapat gaji, aku simpan duit lagi.
kenapa sekarang mama mula cakap pasal duit kwsp dia?dia mula cakap pasal insurans, mula cakap pasal bahagi-bahagi duit dia sama adil dengan tentera-tentera dia yang empat orang ni. risau. tapi buat cool.
Insya'Allah ok
after a month duduk kat malaysia dengan lenggang kangkung, aku mula kerja. hotel. operator. and after three days aku kerja, aku dapat pergi training untuk jadi front office assistant. which is cool and scary at the same time. before this handle customer over the phone, now face to face. dulu ada button mute untuk gelabah and cuak kebebeh. tapi esok, semua guest dapat baca depan mata. i hope everything will go well tomorrow. tomorrow is the first day of training. kita training+practise terus. abislah. cuak kebebeh sorang-sorang.
setiap hari pun mesti ada something yang remindkan aku pasal Hasbullah. adui lah. pergi briefing selalu ada Hasbullah. sekarang ada Arip yang aku tak kenal langsung. bila pergi cafeteria jumpa Hasbullah tengah makan, sekarang entah siapa-siapa.
Makan sorang-sorang, aku memang tak ada hal. jalan sorang-sorang pun aku tak ada hal asal ada arah tuju and of course kena ada duit untuk beli air bila haus.
bilik sewa sudah ada. lesen on the way. gaji tak ada. saving makin sikit. in one month aku dah spend over RMbanyaksangat. tapi aku tak berapa menyesal sebab aku betul-betul guna duit tu and tak pernah lagi call MrsNSP untuk pinjam duit. kadang-kadang i just wanna live. i dont want to just survive. tapi nanti bila sudah dapat gaji, aku simpan duit lagi.
kenapa sekarang mama mula cakap pasal duit kwsp dia?dia mula cakap pasal insurans, mula cakap pasal bahagi-bahagi duit dia sama adil dengan tentera-tentera dia yang empat orang ni. risau. tapi buat cool.
Insya'Allah ok
Friday, March 25, 2011
Dimulakan dengan bismillah, di sudahi dengan alhamdulillah. Im a bit calm today. Yesterday evening i went to a house somewhere in jalan ampang untuk tengok bilik.rumah cm mahal gl.
Aku pun malas nak gaduh and tanya opinion Simley.aku terus bayar deposit and message Simley aku dah bayar deposit medium room and its uP to her to join or not. She decide to....walk away. GOOD! I dont think i can stand with her attittude.so i asked me sister if she wants to join me. And the problem having a sister as a roomate is- i will always feel its my responsible to make sure she didnt use her wages to pay for things/goods. And i always want to sumbat her mouth with every food i can find.
So back to the new house/room. The toilet i telll you, aiyoooo siyesly need to be bleach for a week! Aiyooo. Its a girls house but aiyaa even the kuali also they dont want to basuh you know. Oleh itu, i go to tesco and bought berus dawai tahap tertinggi, glove, jamban washing liquid and some other stuff. But of course, nak buat baik ni ade je halangan. The new keys that i just duplicate didnt work!!! So i left all the stuff outside the house and went to dunkins donut to have a sandwhich. And i get d other keys from my sister and went back to the house. And i start scrubing until its 7 oclock. The kerak wont go away one. Aiyoo. But at least i do some scrubing so its kinda comforting for me to know its clean even the colour still there a bit.
I dont know how to operate the washing machine. And i was thinking to just let laundry shop to do the job.
Tabysocoollike dont like kerak2
Aku pun malas nak gaduh and tanya opinion Simley.aku terus bayar deposit and message Simley aku dah bayar deposit medium room and its uP to her to join or not. She decide to....walk away. GOOD! I dont think i can stand with her attittude.so i asked me sister if she wants to join me. And the problem having a sister as a roomate is- i will always feel its my responsible to make sure she didnt use her wages to pay for things/goods. And i always want to sumbat her mouth with every food i can find.
So back to the new house/room. The toilet i telll you, aiyoooo siyesly need to be bleach for a week! Aiyooo. Its a girls house but aiyaa even the kuali also they dont want to basuh you know. Oleh itu, i go to tesco and bought berus dawai tahap tertinggi, glove, jamban washing liquid and some other stuff. But of course, nak buat baik ni ade je halangan. The new keys that i just duplicate didnt work!!! So i left all the stuff outside the house and went to dunkins donut to have a sandwhich. And i get d other keys from my sister and went back to the house. And i start scrubing until its 7 oclock. The kerak wont go away one. Aiyoo. But at least i do some scrubing so its kinda comforting for me to know its clean even the colour still there a bit.
I dont know how to operate the washing machine. And i was thinking to just let laundry shop to do the job.
Tabysocoollike dont like kerak2
Thursday, March 24, 2011
saya menghampiri stress
so plan untuk satu rumah dengan angah kat cempaka dah cancel. sad face
so terpaksa pindah area lain bersama seorang minah bernama Miss Simley bukan nama sebenar. so Simley tengah kerja. so urusan carik mencarik rumah dengan automatik menjadi tanggungjawab aku sorang. ada dalam sejuta kali aku gaduh dengan Simley sebab dia sangat menggelegakkan hati. if you really dont care much about finding a house, why dont u start to back off and go back to your mummy place. puncanya sekarang, dia pandai cakap mulut 'if you really think this a big deal why dont you pindah sorang-sorang'. do you really think it never cross my mind before this?
aku nak suruh kau call tuan rumah pun macam dah satu masalah besar untuk kau. aku bukan nak marah sebab dia tak nak carik rumah ke apa. tapi perangai membabi buta tido itu sangatlah menyakitkan hati. if kau tak pernah carik rumah before this - aku pun sama! if kau penat - aku pun sama. i know aku tak start kerja lagi. tapi aku pun keluar awal pagi, aku berjalan dari sana ke sana carik pokok-pokok, 7Eleven yang ada nombor rumah untuk di sewa. jari-jari aku bekerja tetak keyboard carik rumah sewa. mulut aku ni pun bekerja telefon sana sini tanya rumah kosong. kerja kau, tidor-tidor, membebel-bebel. bila si boroi jumpa aku, kau nak masam muka sebab kau rasa aku ni tak habis-habis jumpa si broi. this week aku baru jumpa si broi sekali je kot.at least aku jumpa broi, aku boleh gak gelak sikit-sikit. tapi bila aku jumpa kau wahai Simley, coke aku pun terbang dari tangan aku langit. handphone aku pun melayang dari tangan kanan ke tanah yang duduk di bawah. semua kena ikut cakap kau. kau tak tau step carik rumah?? ko bukan 5 tahun la ngok. kau dah 25 nanti!
this is so not tabyissocoollike!
so terpaksa pindah area lain bersama seorang minah bernama Miss Simley bukan nama sebenar. so Simley tengah kerja. so urusan carik mencarik rumah dengan automatik menjadi tanggungjawab aku sorang. ada dalam sejuta kali aku gaduh dengan Simley sebab dia sangat menggelegakkan hati. if you really dont care much about finding a house, why dont u start to back off and go back to your mummy place. puncanya sekarang, dia pandai cakap mulut 'if you really think this a big deal why dont you pindah sorang-sorang'. do you really think it never cross my mind before this?
aku nak suruh kau call tuan rumah pun macam dah satu masalah besar untuk kau. aku bukan nak marah sebab dia tak nak carik rumah ke apa. tapi perangai membabi buta tido itu sangatlah menyakitkan hati. if kau tak pernah carik rumah before this - aku pun sama! if kau penat - aku pun sama. i know aku tak start kerja lagi. tapi aku pun keluar awal pagi, aku berjalan dari sana ke sana carik pokok-pokok, 7Eleven yang ada nombor rumah untuk di sewa. jari-jari aku bekerja tetak keyboard carik rumah sewa. mulut aku ni pun bekerja telefon sana sini tanya rumah kosong. kerja kau, tidor-tidor, membebel-bebel. bila si boroi jumpa aku, kau nak masam muka sebab kau rasa aku ni tak habis-habis jumpa si broi. this week aku baru jumpa si broi sekali je kot.at least aku jumpa broi, aku boleh gak gelak sikit-sikit. tapi bila aku jumpa kau wahai Simley, coke aku pun terbang dari tangan aku langit. handphone aku pun melayang dari tangan kanan ke tanah yang duduk di bawah. semua kena ikut cakap kau. kau tak tau step carik rumah?? ko bukan 5 tahun la ngok. kau dah 25 nanti!
this is so not tabyissocoollike!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
bukan nak melawan
banyak betul benda nak kena buat untuk start life independent. im glad i have some money to be my ground and do some stuff like rent a room, license thingy, LRT thing, and bills -before i start work next month. i need to do everything quick. before 1st of april. or else, im in trouble, my ears will be more in trouble untuk dengar bebelan para perdana menteri dan bendahari rumah ini.
aku kalau boleh nak duduk area cempaka ja. senang. tapi yang lagi sebenar-benarnya, aku tak sabar nak duduk dalam bilik sorang2, main guitar yang baru dapat 3 hari lepas (ehem2. im a guitarist now. hahaha), pakai boxer sesuka hati tanpa perlu ingat dosa pada mata yang memang jelas-jeles tak dapat pandang. tapi malaikat akan dekat dengan kita tak?if kita pakai pendek dari lutut?
sebenarnya mama suruh bawak angah pindah sekali. sebab of course mama tau kitorang tak selesa duduk rumah sekarang ni. and aku pun memang nak berhajat bawak angah keluar dari rumah ni. tapi berdikari apa sangat if rumah aku dengan mama jaraknya macam keramat ke ampang point. tapi kira oklah tu. tak de siapa yang stress. well i hope so.
lesen dah renew. lesen L je la tapi. P belum dapat lagi. nak kene complete before 21/6/09. if tak..mmg aku kene repeat semua lagi sekali. today is awesome because aku akhirnya dapat menghabiskan the whole movie kat cinema. bulan ni saja dah 2 kali tiket movie aku terbazir sebab mereka-mereka yang tetiba suka-suka nak buat unplanned plan.
nasib baik aku jenis tabyissocoollike. haha
Monday, March 21, 2011
gile bapak best siot
dalam masa sebulan aku dah sampai KL, arini papa keluar pi kursus. bapak gila best bila dia tak dak kat umah oi! seriyes syok. salah satu contoh ialah, wifi yang aku dapat sampai sekarang. kalau dia ada confirm2 pukul 11.30 malam da kena off wifi. choii!
so, kerja part time udah dapat or hampir dapat. masuk 1st april. bilik sewa belum dapat. esok baru nak cari. agenda esok ialah:
pegi JPJ untuk amik L yang telah hilang. eeee! benci betul. menyusahkan..! benda tu patut ade je. nape plak nak hilang!!! (im not blaming u mama)
sebelum tu kena amik gambar untuk buat L baru tu.
lepastu carik bilik kosong.
yupi yup. its time for me to go find my own nest. this bukit-bukit cannot go u know. i cannot la like bukit-bukit so much. dah la so far from the main road. there is no bus. some more, we have to call taxi if u dont have transport. satu kali duduk kat dalam taxi dah kena charge RM3 itu macam. bila udah sampe tempatnya, kena tambah RM2 lagi sebab kita call taxi tu suruh datang. tidak ke mendatang beban bagi mereka yang tak punya kad kredit ini untuk mencari lelaki yang bukan nya kaya. tapi boleh la mampu untuk bagi seorang driver cum chef cum gardener. see see, how considerate i am to my future hubby, i dont want to beban him to find 3 men, so i have this one pondan who can do it all. bodoh la taby ni. nanti mesti kena serang dengan mak nyah pas ni.
so, kerja part time udah dapat or hampir dapat. masuk 1st april. bilik sewa belum dapat. esok baru nak cari. agenda esok ialah:
pegi JPJ untuk amik L yang telah hilang. eeee! benci betul. menyusahkan..! benda tu patut ade je. nape plak nak hilang!!! (im not blaming u mama)
sebelum tu kena amik gambar untuk buat L baru tu.
lepastu carik bilik kosong.
yupi yup. its time for me to go find my own nest. this bukit-bukit cannot go u know. i cannot la like bukit-bukit so much. dah la so far from the main road. there is no bus. some more, we have to call taxi if u dont have transport. satu kali duduk kat dalam taxi dah kena charge RM3 itu macam. bila udah sampe tempatnya, kena tambah RM2 lagi sebab kita call taxi tu suruh datang. tidak ke mendatang beban bagi mereka yang tak punya kad kredit ini untuk mencari lelaki yang bukan nya kaya. tapi boleh la mampu untuk bagi seorang driver cum chef cum gardener. see see, how considerate i am to my future hubby, i dont want to beban him to find 3 men, so i have this one pondan who can do it all. bodoh la taby ni. nanti mesti kena serang dengan mak nyah pas ni.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
budak pendek
Punggah-punggah barang terjumpa pulak memory card untuk handphone yang lama. Kebetulan ada pulak dia punya card reader. Memang laju aku fuck kan card reader itu di usb port. Tersembul segala gambar-gambar dulu-dulu. Riang gelak ketawa semua cukup. Everything is complete. All the pictures are laughable. Without any interfering or existence of a man called father.
‘ and I hope u always stay the same, cause there’s nothing bout you I would change’
Bait lengkap. Aku cuba tengok-tengok lagu yang ada dalam memory card tu. Tak banyak. Tapi semua macam punya sebab untuk ada dalam playlist aku waktu dulu. Lantakkanlah. Aku pun bukan ingat lagi. Aku just suka tengok gambar-gambar je.
Dalam banyak-banyak lagu, terselit satu zikir yang dapat dari Hasbullah. Tadi jumpa kak nor, aku Tanya pasal Hasbullah. Dia kata Hasbullah kerja dengan insurans company sekarang. Rindu budak pendek tu. Selalu ingat kat dia. Selalu ingat waktu kami kerja sama-sama masa bulan puasa. Kawan-kawan guna nama aku untuk pesan makanan berbuka, and everytime buat macam tu makanan berbuka yang ‘dibelikan’ guna duit Hasbullah, semua dapat free. And Hasbullah charge aku belanja dia KFC. Teringat pulak masa dia bagi pinjam ipod classic dia. Aku terdelete semua application dalam tu. Dia cool je. Dia yang pergi betulkan sendiri and offer untuk carikkan ipod untuk aku. then, dia pinjamkan handphone dia pulak. Sebab dia tertahu aku baru beli handphone baru. So dengan baik hati, dia suruh aku amik lagu dalam handphone canggih dia. Hari-hari bagi handphone kat aku. Tapi lagu dalam tu sama ja. Hahaha. And one day, its time for me to go. I don’t the guts to say babai to him or to everyone. so I left without saying goodbye and but still wishing the next day I’ll be his real friend and not just colleague. But nothing happened. Teringin sangat nak borak-borak macam dulu. Maybe ada hikmah. Tapi apa hikmah dia? Tak jumpa pun hikmah dia, maybe hikmahnya ialah kat dunia ni ada jugak orang yang pendek dan baik hati. :p
Sunday, March 13, 2011
what what what
so so so. whats happening?
bil celcom semakin menggunung. dem dem dem. betul la, orang yang guna bil ni sangatlah manja. bila boring, call orang. bila happy, call orang. bila marah, call orang. so hambik ko punyer bil. padan muka! nasib bil tak sampai rumah. lagipun aku pun tak tau kat mana sampul surat rumah ni.
misi terbaru. mencari fail avon mama. semua certificate dari sekolah sampai college ada dalam fail tu. macam mana nak apply kerja if aku tak bawak cert.
Mrs.SE seems happy nowadays. sekarang mesti dah nak masuk Spring kat sana. its warm again. i miss spring and summer. but never the winter. i want to go there again. but alone this time. kadang-kadang malas nak buat dengan orang sebab diorang pandai cakap 'jom' tapi nothing happen.
macam bandung trip. semua pun cakap nak ikut. tapi bell dengan ayie je yang betul2 make it happen. tak de nak delay-delay things. oh yeah!
its to time to do cardiovascular exercise. to improve oxygen blabla things. so its time to smoke. hahaha.
bil celcom semakin menggunung. dem dem dem. betul la, orang yang guna bil ni sangatlah manja. bila boring, call orang. bila happy, call orang. bila marah, call orang. so hambik ko punyer bil. padan muka! nasib bil tak sampai rumah. lagipun aku pun tak tau kat mana sampul surat rumah ni.
misi terbaru. mencari fail avon mama. semua certificate dari sekolah sampai college ada dalam fail tu. macam mana nak apply kerja if aku tak bawak cert.
Mrs.SE seems happy nowadays. sekarang mesti dah nak masuk Spring kat sana. its warm again. i miss spring and summer. but never the winter. i want to go there again. but alone this time. kadang-kadang malas nak buat dengan orang sebab diorang pandai cakap 'jom' tapi nothing happen.
macam bandung trip. semua pun cakap nak ikut. tapi bell dengan ayie je yang betul2 make it happen. tak de nak delay-delay things. oh yeah!
its to time to do cardiovascular exercise. to improve oxygen blabla things. so its time to smoke. hahaha.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
3rd trip
FANG! lisa comel sangat hari ini.
jumpa lisa. lepak georgetown. wangsa walk. lisa suruh post ' lisa comel sangat hari ini'. kembali smoking. yeah its bad. imma bad person.
jumpa lisa. lepak georgetown. wangsa walk. lisa suruh post ' lisa comel sangat hari ini'. kembali smoking. yeah its bad. imma bad person.
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